It’s Saturday afternoon 1:54 pm and I just woke up….didn’t go to sleep until 8:00 am, but it’s better than the norm. The past year I have rarely slept, never understood why but I think I’m starting to figure it out.
It is amazing how unexpected things can change your perspective on life and the way you live, especially when you were ready to lose hope all together. The past 2 ½ years had almost put me under; my daughter was away a college, my sons were graduating and the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with was living a double life – How in the hell can you recover from that? I have and I am getting stronger everyday!
With the help of my wonderful friends and family, I began a slow painful recovery but still maintained I would never allow anyone to penetrate the shield that protected my emotions. That part of me had become cold and dark, destroyed by the bomb that had shattered my world. I had learned to deal with this; what option did I have? I was alone and I was fine! - How dare someone I don’t even know find a way to bring light to my dark place?
I’m not talking about falling in love, I’m talking about someone forcing you to reflect on your life and accept the possibility that just because I allowed myself to settle, there is still something worth the wait. If this person could see through me disrupting the control I had on my life, then there is still hope. It really doesn’t matter how many others have been touched by this same angel or “sheep in wolves clothing” it is my life that matters to me. I may never really know this person but to them I owe my gratitude, I can’t stop smiling.
Pay attention, take chances and maybe the smallest event could give you new life.
It is amazing how unexpected things can change your perspective on life and the way you live, especially when you were ready to lose hope all together. The past 2 ½ years had almost put me under; my daughter was away a college, my sons were graduating and the man I thought I would spend the rest of my life with was living a double life – How in the hell can you recover from that? I have and I am getting stronger everyday!
With the help of my wonderful friends and family, I began a slow painful recovery but still maintained I would never allow anyone to penetrate the shield that protected my emotions. That part of me had become cold and dark, destroyed by the bomb that had shattered my world. I had learned to deal with this; what option did I have? I was alone and I was fine! - How dare someone I don’t even know find a way to bring light to my dark place?
I’m not talking about falling in love, I’m talking about someone forcing you to reflect on your life and accept the possibility that just because I allowed myself to settle, there is still something worth the wait. If this person could see through me disrupting the control I had on my life, then there is still hope. It really doesn’t matter how many others have been touched by this same angel or “sheep in wolves clothing” it is my life that matters to me. I may never really know this person but to them I owe my gratitude, I can’t stop smiling.
Pay attention, take chances and maybe the smallest event could give you new life.
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I have problems sleeping also and reflecting on my life is the only think I haven't tried.
Being happy is always a very good thing.
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